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date/time 31 May 2009,11:23 pm
fuck you screw
i don't feel happy, not at all. whatever. woke up cos of that screw's constant shouting. whatever, went to SengKang in the afternoon. blahblah, bored to death there. home, com for awhile then left to plazasing. watched 'monsters vs aliens' i like :D damn cute and cos finally no screw or bastard telling me that i've disappointed them, that i've got no hope, that i'm just worthless. whatever, finished went to walkwalk. went chinatown for bastard's and screw's dinner. blahblah, cabbed home. he kpkb bout my constant messaging. whatever la. like it'll affect me anymore. i'm leaving to philippines in 4 more days, don't have to listen to him for 2 weeks. only have to face that screw. but, what to do right, tsk home, screw was super fucked up. shouted at me cos i didn't wanna move. then bastard came and extra. then took my phone. anything la k. that screw's not going to work tomorrow morning, how to go find Amy siahs. no matter how you treat me, it wouldn't change anything. cos now, i just hate the both of you. honestly, have you forgotten how to be a kid. both of you keep telling me you had good results when you're young. yeahright, if you did. you wouldn't be stuck with this life, stuck with me and my worthlessness. i'm already what, 14. and you're threatening to whack me. wahlao eh. i've already grow out of that phase, why don't you.
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date/time 30 May 2009,12:20 pm
What's done you can't undo
didn't go training cos my leg still hurts D: tsk. I WATCHED MY INCREDIBLES :D so cool la, i like :D hahahaha, talked to Amy for awhile. messaged Nurul. oh, and our class shirt is ready already :D just need Deborah to pick up her phone and our mums to allow us out. my dad hasn't asked for my results ehs :/ i scared he ask lehs :/ if he does, i sure die la. i don't want D: and i was so reluctant to go home yesterday. hah.
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date/time 29 May 2009,7:24 pm
before we crash and burn
LOL, the song 'crash and burn' has been stuck in my head since yesterday. THANKS HAZEL. hahahaha. today's the last day of school :/ k whatever. went to school with Hazel. english first, damn slack. well, we're only doing filing what. come to think of filing, i've got some work to hand up :o ohwells, recess was boring. talked about people with Nurul and Priscilla. LOL. then chinese, damn slack too :x CME thereafter. slack too :D got back PPR. damn screwed. i hate CA1. SCREW CA1. rah. got held back for awhile then went to bukit timah plaza with Amy. got my crackers :D then went KAP to sitsit. i saw her MG friends :o blahblah, then talked to her for awhile then went home. he hasn't asked for my results. veh scared now :/ AND IMMA DYE MY HAIR :D i don't care what they say, now's the hols :D
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date/time 28 May 2009,8:55 pm
And now I try hard to make it. I just want to make you proud
it's her results. you make it sound like i'm the one who has gotten it. if she gets those grades, it's her problem. i cry, you say i'm trying to get pity. hello, is it wrong to cry. please, after everything today, i don't cry, i must have been crazy. the whole time you were scolding me, you're just plainly blaming me for whatever wrong she does. her grades dropped, my fault. she has attitude problem, my fault again. but, when she improves, not cos of me, cos of you and her alone. when she does something good, her credit.since you came back, since 2005. my results, never good enough for you. i can never be compared to them. once compared, i'm just a disgrace to your family. not matter what happens, you were never proud of me. since that year.and then, you asked what i wanted to be when i grow up so i would know what to choose for sub combination. do you know how hard it was for me to tell you. before i could answer, you said i had no ambition and never thought about my future. you said i'm not responsible, not yet matured and that you can never expect anything from me. and when i finally tell you what i wanted to be, you told me to dream on. that i can never reach it cos my results suck, and i'm only telling you those words to get your hopes up, but you know i'll never get it. how motivational, thanks. i really need that, really.
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date/time 4:44 pm
everything you say
Went to school with Hazel :D HAHAHAH. talked alot. math first thing in the morning, followed by DnT. DnT was damn horny la. LOL. Alfred Goh ._. damn horny la. OMG. hahahahahah. then chem, got scolded by Mrs Chia cos our class every thurs come late for her class. BLAHBLAH. recess, ate till sibei full la D: chinese was boring. walked around. went to ask Eyleen stuffs. HAHAHAHA, she's shy :/ anyways, english after that. damn slack too :x but, i laughed like mad with Nurul :D hahahaha, went to help Angie photocopy stuffs after school. i think, Nurul and Hazel can get along very well. laughing with them is damn fun too :D bus-ed to clementi after that. the trip there was damn funny la. laughed like an idiot with Hazel and Nurul on the bus. HEH. ate longjohnsilver with them then walked around clementi before going to the bus stop. went to Hazel's house, and i'm still here :D HAHAHA. didn't go training cos i pulled my muscle. fucking hell, hard to walk you know. like cripple like that D: wtf, i already say didn't mean to right. do you think i want ignore you one mehs. and please, i'm not so wuliao to pretend to care. even if i do pretend to care, i would have stopped so long ago. fine whatever, hate me. be my guest.
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date/time 27 May 2009,4:39 pm
i miss you
talked till late late with Angie, Avril and Wesley. damn sleepy this morning, i wanted to skip school la :x HEHS. but, no. went to school with Hazel in the end. blahblah, assembly in the hall. thank god. not so hot, so yeah. didn't sweat much. heh, english first. LOSER MR WOO, talk to the heaven and talk to the earth. LOL. then math, talked to Mr Wong. blahblah, recess was nice :D had my favourite chicken rice :D YAY. hahahaha, k blahblahblah. geog, Ms Ray talked bout my attitude -.- whatever la, like it'll change anything. anyways, after school. waited for Amy to come down then went to Bukit Timah Plaza to get Priscilla's corn chips. then went KAP. I SAW RACHEL! hehehehe. went back after. i feel sleepy, maybe i'll go sleep later at around 5.30 :D
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date/time 26 May 2009,7:23 pm
how do you sleep
learning journey today was fun :D k la, i always think learning journey is fun xD don't have to rot in class blahblah. went to dragonkiln in some ulu ulu place. in jungle lehs :o quite cool one nehs :D hahaahah, did pottery :D and clay modelling or something. kinda fun, but my skirt got dirty la -.- bloodyfuck. went back to school, painted my dino i bought :D SUPER CUTE OK. hahahaha, then ate alot. then training. training was shit, i was so so so bored there. cos i wasn't talking to any seniors, kept disturbing juniors xD hahahah. played captain's ball with them. LOL. damn cute la. crapped like mad at the bus stop with Stephanie, Vaya, Briana and San. damn funny. on the way to clementi interchange also damn crappy. kept disturbing people xD San accompanied me to buy takoballs :D hahaha home, blah. i don't like it at home. hais, school tomorrow. OMG, chem project. HOW D: die already la. DIEDIEDIE. talked to Shien-Li again :D hahahaha. don't think i like you can
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date/time 25 May 2009,10:25 pm
Don't waste your time
on the phone with Shien-Li now :D talking to her alot these few days, YAY. was talking to Angie and Amy before she called :D hahahaha. training tomorrow :D learning journey too :D Amy got me corn crackers, YAY! hahahahahahahah. got something to eat tomorrow during learningjourney :D hahaha, YAY. talking to Shien-Li is nice :D HAHAHAHA
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date/time 5:22 pm
the force of gravity
skipped school with Amy today :D hahaha, met her in the morning. walked around clementi, waited for mum to go to work before going back home. let her sleep for awhile while i used to com, then i went to sleep :D HAHAHAHA. yay. she told me stuffs again. hahaha, went to macs for lunch then went to bukit timah plaza to check something. then went to coldstorage. blahblah, went back home. slept till 5. cos of that, i've got a badbadbad headache D: school tomorrow, going some dragon kiln rubbish place. FOR SURE HOT ONE. rah. dad's back D: lousy. i'm lazy to get out of my room la, hehs
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date/time 24 May 2009,3:07 pm
word search
HAH~ didn't go out today. supposed to go Nicolette's house, but since gay and les didn't go. so i didn't lo :D on the phone with Amy now. LOL. skipping school tomorrow. but idk where to go siahs D: BLEAHH. is it me, or can't i talk to you like normal friends anymore. being friends with you was nice, really. but i guess, now i can't talk to you without being sarcastic, heh. sorry :xaw, bcb. cheer up k. he's seriously not worth it, you've gotta move on already k. if he's gonna behave like that, let him. don't cry for him and let him see your weak side. i know you're stronger than this right? (:
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date/time 23 May 2009,7:45 pm
BGT
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date/time 7:08 pm
i can't fight anymore for you
i remember this dino. i loved drawing it last year :D gave it to Lapat in the end. i heard someone's using it as her screensaver ehs? :D didn't go training this morning. had tuition, and my cramps were killing me anyways. talked to Amy alotalotalot today. hahahaha. slept for awhile, which resulted in a bad headache == hehs just had takoballs :D yay, i like. ps ah Hazel :x can't go out :x HEH,
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date/time 22 May 2009,11:06 pm
it's killing me inside
i wanted to skip school today lehs D: but since i'm getting geog paper back, had to go. met Hazel. went to school. blahblah. DnT, recess, chinese and english. not forgetting assembly. laughed alot with Nurul and Priscilla :D especially during assembly. HAHAHAHA, Wira like * like that. make us laugh like mad OHOHOH, and i like hugging Priscilla :D LOL, walked out of school with Hazel, Andrea, Amy and Sheryl. HAHAH, went bus stop with Hazel. waited for her bus to arrive before going home to get clothes. went les's house thereafter. slacked for awhile then went to mac ate fries and then left to MRT station. sneaked in, cos my card no money :D trained to bedok. then bus to ECP. walked and walked then reached there. not much people lehs :o tried cooking with les, but failed D: sadly. TSK, couldn't start the fire. saw Eyleen there, HI :D k whatever, left at 9.30. cabbed to bedok MRT then took train back :D i'm damn tired la D: reached home, got nagged at -.- say what must reach home by 9. no later than that, any later must ask permission. LIKE THAT MAKES A DIFFERENCE. not going for training tomorrow cos got tuition :/ AND I'VE GOT FUCKING CRAMPS. whole day killing me. plus gastric now isn't helping that much D: bcb, don't be sad anymore k. i know i wasn't much of a help, but yeahs. get over him and move on alright, there's other guys in the world right :D sg's so small, crying over a guy for so long isn't worth it. you have to look further :Di don't feel good around you, how.
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date/time 21 May 2009,7:52 pm
ego amo tu
hm, went to school with Hazel. chinese first period. blahblah. did worksheets and shit. then bio, damn screwed la. hais, started a new chapter :o then music, no cher so went toilet with Nurul and Priscilla. called Amy out :D hahaha, then recess. blah, maths thereafter. i think. kinda sleepy then chem. another new chap == got back lit, failed by a mark. RAH. then art. kinda crap la. HAHAHA training after that. kinda boring la :/ i wanna train with juniors la D: hahaha, gave Priscilla a super sweaty hug. AHAHAHA. went back with Steph, Briana and San. damn crap la. AHAHAHA. then on the way home. Grace called :o then talked blahblah. going to east coast with les and tab tomorrow. hahaha. dinner was shit. mum scolded me for my results D: i want to cry la.
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date/time 20 May 2009,11:14 pm
that's honestly the last thing i need now
i want to cry. i just thought of all my results, altho i improved for my other subjects. but i screwed bio, lit and chinese. and what, screw till so badly. i really want to cry. i need to go out with gay and les, at least i'll forgot it for that period of time. putting those shit aside. there's training. hopefully i wouldn't get injured as much as yesterday. my hands and arms are bruised. then my feet hurts. RAH. i want to cry la D: gonna talk to Angie, and hopefully i'll cheer up and get over my results. but it's gonna be hard la :/ my mum'll be constantly reminding me that i failed 3 subjects and didn't reach her expectations. very stressful you know D: blah, shall go talk to Angie now. i didn't see 11.11, aren't you thinking of me
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date/time 7:22 pm
in another life
OHOHOH, 100th post :D anyways today was nice la :D hahahah, went to school with Hazel. LOL. english first, stupid. cos of calculation error, i got 61.5% STUPID. anyways, history thereafter. benten didn't come to school :o heh. went down to eat with Priscilla for awhile. went up. talked and down for recess. maths afterthat. got back paper2. OMG LA, BOOBIE GOT 82 LEHS. omg, the world's falling apart. bit by bit. RAH. then CME after that. damn crap la. TSK. chinese later. blahblah. went jurongpoint with Nurul after school. did classtee. damn crappy la == bus home thereafter :D slept for awhile. came home, talked to Amy, ate and bathed. tuition now :D YAY. HAHAHA
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date/time 19 May 2009,6:33 pm
But it's eating me alive
recently, 'slow goodbye' has been stuck in my head :/ talked to Angie till late last night. hahaha, crapped alot at her cos i was hyper at 12 plus :x woke up, went to school with Hazel. hahahaha, chinese first. failed it, kinda expected la :/ but i'm sad la. hais english thereafter, it was overally fine la. but honestly, i'm not that contented with it la D: HAIS. anyways, recess was fine. maths, got back paper1. heh, i'm happy for it :D hopefully paper2 would be the same or better la (which is unlikely seeing how i suck at math). bio, learned about digestion. blahblah. then Ms Huang came in. talked to her for a while, she kept saying sorry to me cos i failed. hahahah, it's ok la. kinda expected that i will, but disheartened :/ geog, haven't gotten back marks. hahaha, Ms Ray was crappy la. HAHAHA, damn funny. then training. trained with seniors. matched. injured myself :/ hehs. damn pain la. wearing slippers to school tomorrow :D yay. hahaha, there's history tomorrow. super unwilling to go to school tomorrow. RAH. i'm so dead. i want to cry. UGH
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date/time 18 May 2009,7:11 pm
too bad
rah, i wanna vomit la == blah. having very bad gastric now. and woah, i've got triple eyelids. ew, veh ugly. dinner soon but somehow i don't wanna eat. lost my mood already la. knnb. funny how when i'm having my afternoon nap that everyone spams me with messages. stupidstupidstupid. roar, i feel damn irritated and pekcek la. maybe it's cos you behave like a slut that's why they had those thoughts
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date/time 4:03 pm
screwed feelings
today was shitzxc. went to school with Hazel. i like my bag xD blahblah. got back sciences. and i'm not happy with bio, i failed it == aw, comeon. like that how to get contacts and continue basketball man. FUCK. so yeah, cos of bio marks i wasn't that happy la :/ tsk chinese marks first thing in the morning tomorrow, SO SCREWED. then english, ohmyfuck. sure die la. ROAR. math, ahwong said i just passed. then geog, geog can go bang wall la. Christine Tan mark one ehs == ccb. so screwed la. ROAR.
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date/time 17 May 2009,8:40 pm
when it comes to you, there's nothing i can do
Yay, hello Amanda :D shitzxc, so spastic xD :o Claudia looks blur la. LOL Hello Vidyaaa \m/ Yay, LOVE :D alot of photos of Jane cos we used her phone. but it's ok :D out the whole day. i'm tired. hahahah, met Jane at MRT station there at 11 plus. went shaw house. waited for the rest. then went up to get tickets :D 17 AGAIN. hahahaha, watched it. damn awesome i tell you :D except for the court part, some kid screamed and broke the atmosphere thing. pfft, went to mos burger thereafter to find Claudia :D hahahaha, went to wheellock. ate pizza. sat there for what, an hour. just talking. LOL, then the waitress kept walking pass us xD
then Vidya had to go :/ went to cine :D arcade and got my anklet :D I LIKE LA. anyways, then went to esplanade. DAMN GAY I TELL YOU. hahahaha, took alot photos. hahahaha, rushed to the MRT station with Jane :D we walked damndamndamn fast la. LOL, on the train talked alot :D I GOT HUGGED :D
on the phone with Amy now. LOL. talking about booby traps == HAHAHA, yay. today's a fun day :D school tomorrow :/
and Amanda wants her name in the post. NAH, AMANDA'S GAY
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date/time 16 May 2009,8:17 pm
number X
watched X men today :D YAY, it's awesome. i like. iwannajointhemandbeamutant :D then i can be cooliozxc :D hahahaha, going out with Jane, Amanda, Claudia and don'tknow who else :D FASTERFASTER. i wanna go out :D TEEHEEHEEE, i feel high :D damndamndamndamn high. HAHAHAHA
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date/time 10:42 am
someone wake me up
wanted to post yesterday, but was too tired to do so. hahaha, went les house. slept for an hour, hahaha. then bused to orchard with les to pick sis. ALAMAK, bus there 2 hours lehs == then my parents got irritated and my mum went to pick her instead. LOL, then cabbed back lo. les likes my bag xD hahaha, went les house eat eat then went down. hahaha, talked alot la :D hahaha, then went up. she went to use com then i crapped with others :D damn funny la. HAHAHA, then crap till horny. LOL. then 12 plusplus went home :D used com till 1 25? hahaha, idk didn't go training today cos i woke up with a headache. mum told me not to go :D so yeah, went back to sleep and got a effing screwed dream. i hate it. i really really hate it. STUPIDD,
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date/time 15 May 2009,1:17 pm
cos you wrote my name across your hand
ah, woke up. went to school with Hazel. went Amy's class, took book and got hug :D hahaha, listening. damn gay i tell you == 30 plus minutes? idk la, answered the questions and slept all the way. tired ma :x i slept late last night lehs. speaking of last night, i got a weird dream. omg :/ somemore got unexpected people in it. shitzxc. anyways, back to today. went to queensway after school. I SAW GAY. YAY, ily gaygay :D hahaha, her friends are cute you know. hahaha, then went to vivo walkwalk. bought a toy :D i like it. hahaha, cabbed to stmargs thereafter. Angie's friend left to Jurong and doesn't want to go out since i've called her a bitch. gay, went Heeren and got my bag then home :D i'm getting tired alot :/ how. hais, training tomorrow. movie tonight. sorry les :x shitzxc, someone be my messaging buddy D: i don't like my phone not vibrating man D: Amy's out with Sharon, left me to rot at home. LOL. k, imma go les house now since i can't go tonight. she better appreciate it man :D
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date/time 14 May 2009,8:08 pm
shitzxc, wth does it mean
out with Angie for the entire day. hahahah, damn gay la. went fareast, then peninsular(sp?) then bugis. bloodyhell, don't have D: nevermind. went to Angie's house thereafter. met Tifanis then went to heeren cos we heard there the bag we're looking for. got, but what. 50 effing dollars == omg, then it's not exactly what i want. AHSHITZXC. fisherman. anyways, then went to look for a doctor for Angie. went around queensway sec to look for it, then what. don't have == stupid. anyways, went to Clementi there the doctor. blahblah, finish then left. hais, i'm bored :/ Hazel jio me out just now :/ sorry couldn't go, hehs. going out tomorrow~ and maybe sunday. see if i got money k :x
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date/time 11:33 am
last goodbye
YAY. art was stupid. Nurul saved my life :D she got my pictures printed :D WOO, so my prep was completed. hahaha, the exam was dumb. i colour finish then sleep already. hahaha, according to Nurul and Priscilla, hoho came to look for me. but i was sleeping. HAHAH. left immediately after the exam. went home :D my com's screwed. well, the keyboard is anyway. ROAR. i'm still sleepy :/ going fareast with Angie later :D OFF TO FIND MY BAG. yay
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date/time 13 May 2009,5:36 pm
Talk is cheap and lies are expensive
hahahah, last 2 papers for MYE :D i feel happy. hahahah, went to Amy's class in the morning to borrow her calculator. Lit paper first. BITCH THING. i hate it D: maybe cos i'm sleepy, i didn't understand a thing D: i had to take from the passage. FUCKK, sure fail la D: i want to cry. recess and back up for math. mathpaper2 was short. alamak. an hour and 15 mins == well, i completed it :D hahaha, after school. went SP to train to Jurong. went popular, damn long la == then went to Hazel's house. did abit of art :D then went Holland. I SAW TSL :D hahahaha, her friend's cute :D tell her to cheer cheer up up bcb :D hahaha waited for Hazel to eat finish then left to get her cookies from subway. LOL, then bus-ed back :D hahaha. NO MORE EXAMS :D out on friday. YAY, hahahaha. shall do art now :D OHOHOH, there's training this saturday :D yay. hahahah, after a long break. i bet i suck, HAHAHA
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date/time 12 May 2009,4:51 pm
i hate this string of emotions i'm feeling
I kept my mouth shut for too long All this time you got me wrong Now we're in this way too far I'm about to break your heart Tear everything we had apart
HAHAHA, talking to Geraldine on MSN :D makes me feel happy. hahah. i'm hungry, gonna get chips later :D and i want a transparent backpack :D ahshit, damn damn hungry mans D: tsk. i think i'm seriously going on my blogging spree thing la. AHAHAH.
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date/time 1:54 pm
STUPID
STUPIDSTUPIDSTUPID. i have no mood anymore. happy happy then no mood. HAHAHA. i want gay and les and bcb and Hazel and Nurul and Priscilla D: i want to cry. fuck you. i hate you and your words and your moodswings. I HATE YOU. roar, i want to cry man. no one has made me feel this bad for a long time, thanks. and Hazel's stupid. i want leave comment/ tag her. THAT DUMB BUM NO LEAVE NOTHING FOR ME TO COMMENT == smart ah, HOR HAZEL.
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date/time 1:28 pm
can't you see i'm choking
Hazel woke me up this morning == LOSER. whatever. went to school with her and boobie. bought food to class cos i'm SUPER hungry. hahaha, science first. BIO KILLED ME D: chem was awesome :D YAY, remind me to get some extra large teddy for Mrs Chia for teachers' day :D k whatever. cos Christine Tan took forever to collect the exam papers. pfft, and cos Priscilla Lim and Nurul Naqiyyah(i'm sorry i spelt your name wrongly for the first time, HAHAHA) were also taking an eternity to do whatever in the toilet. we had barely enough time for recess == paper1 was nice :D i could solve sums. WOO, hahahah. laughed alot today :D bought bubbletea with Nurul. whee :D then back home :D i'm in a good mood today. hahaha :D GOING TO MEET TSL TOMORROW :D YAYYY. hahaha, but going Hazel's house for art first :D awesome or what :D hahahah, then vivo with Angie and her friend, Grace, on friday :D YAY. hahahahahahah, but i still wanna go sentosa ==
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date/time 11 May 2009,10:52 pm
quiz
LOL, cos i'm so bored :D STEP ONE: Spell your name with songs ; Jenny About a girl Never let you go Insomnia Candles Everywhere STEP TWO: Name: Janice Birth date: 30 march 1995 Nickname: idk and i don't wanna know xD Eye Color: Black. Hair Color: Black Zodiac Sign: Aries :D
STEP THREE: The shoes you wore today ; Slippers Your weaknesses ; Trust Your fear(s) ; Nah uh :D Your perfect pizza ; idk the name :o
STEP FOUR: Your best physical feature? ; idk, eyes? Your bedtime? ; near midnight
STEP FIVE: This Or That… ; Pepsi or Coke? Sprite :D McDonald’s or Burger King ;Mac Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea ; Mango Redtea :D Chocolate or Vanilla ; Chocolate! Cappuccino or Coffee ; Mocha
STEP SIX: Do You… Smoke? ;No Sing? ; then? Dance? ; ah, no comments :D Take a shower everyday? ; yeah, then go roll in mud == Have a crush ; :o Do you think you’ve been in love? ; idk how love feels :o Want to go to college ; yeahs Like(d) sec school ; yeahs :D Want to get married ; o.o Get motion sickness ; depends Think you're a health freak ; No Get along with your parents ; Nope
STEP SEVEN: In the past month… Gone to the mall ; yeah Eaten the entire box of Oreo? ; i don't like oreo Eaten Sushi ; nope, too lazy go to the restaurant xD Been on stage ; Yeah Gone skating ; ice skating :D Made homemade cookies ; Ya Gone Skinny dipping ; wth is that? Stolen anything ; yeahs
STEP EIGHT: Ever… Played a game that required removal of clothing? ; no If so, was it mixed company? ; no, it was with myself == Flashed anyone? ; no Been beaten up? ; No Shoplifted ; yeahs
STEP NINE: Age you hope to be married ; idk, Numbers of Children ; -.- Describe your Dream Wedding ; Never thought before. What country would you most like to visit? ; idk
STEP TEN: In the opposite sex.. Best eye color? ; BROWN :D Best hair color? ; Black ;D Short hair or long hair? ; idk Height ; 160-170+? :)
STEP ELEVEN: Number of people I could trust ; got a problem with that :x Number of CDs that I own ; lazy go count Number of tattoos ; none :D Number of piercings ; 3 D:
Personal Quiz Who were you with yesterday? ; ah, my family What woke you up this morning? ; STUPID DRILLING Is tomorrow going to be a good day? ; it's a school day Do you like anybody? ; didn't you ask that before?
THE PAST Ever thrown up in public? ; yeah Passed out because of alcohol? ; nope What’s on your mind RIGHT NOW? ; where the fuck is that blinking typing thing to help me == What kind of home would you like? ; one with swimming pool so i can go late night swimming :D What do you want to be when you grow up? ; vet? Where do you see yourself in 5 years? ; ah, after JC i guess Do you like candy necklaces? ; yeah, whatever that is. i can eat them :D When was the last time you fell over or ran into something? ; idk, i've got STM :D Do you listen to music every day? ; Yeah Do you still go trick or treating? ; i want to :D What was the last thing you ate? ; icing :D Are you a fast typer? ; idk, am i? Whats your favorite type of soda? ; Sprite :D Have you ever moved? ; Huh ? Have you ever won an award? ; Yah, Haha, Are you listening to music right now? ; yeah, some guzheng thing from tv == How long ’till your birthday? ; next year == When were you the saddest in your whole life? ; i honestly don't know. HAHAHA What time is it? ; 11.06pm Do you use ebay to buy or sell? ; :o what that Who makes you mad? ; irritating biches Have you ever heard a song written about you? ; bout me? that'll be cool Something you want to happen in 2009? ; idk
HONESTY SECTION Honestly, what color is your underwear? ; idk, what's yours? :D Honestly, whats on your mind? ; this quiz is funny Honestly, what are you doing right now? ; ah, typing Honestly, have you done something bad today? ; define 'bad'. LOL Honestly, who is the last person you talked to on the phone? ; Amy? Honestly, are you jealous of someone right now? ; yeahs Honestly, what makes you mad most of the time? ; IRRITATING PEOPLE. Honestly, do you bite your nails? ; no Honestly, have you had an eating disorder? ; idk. Honestly, do you want to see someone this very moment? ; Yeah Honestly, are you keeping a big secret now? ; yeah, wanna know? Honestly, do you have a friend you don’t actually like? ; yeah Honestly, are you in denial? ; yeahs Honestly, do you get up in the middle of the night and eat? : sometimes, Honestly, do you like anyone? ; yeah, and it ain't you
Honestly, does anyone like you? ; how am i supposed to know == ANGER SECTIONWhat do you do when you’re mad? ; i get grumpy and want to scream? What’s the worst thing you’ve done when you were mad? ; Cry :D Ever made anyone cry when you were mad? ; yeahs, damn regret siahs :o Do you swear when you’re mad? ; you think lehs CRYING SECTIONWhen was the last time you actually cried? ; yesterday Ever cried yourself to sleep? ; no, you have to stop crying to sleep dumb ass. Do certain songs make you cry? ; no What usually makes you cry? ; idk HAPPY SECTIONAre you usually a happy person? ; happier than you for sure What makes you the happiest? idk Do you believe in yourself? Yes, of course. When people say they think you are good looking/pretty, do you get happy? No? LOL, OHMYFUCK, i want that fucking blink thing back. i'm getting so frustrated not knowing where it is == give it back D:
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date/time 9:59 pm
oh, i hate you so bad
can you like fucking made up your fucked up mind. starting of this year, you tell me improve can already. then what, you menopause until forget what you say is it. then tell me you want 70. ohmyfuck. i really hate you and your mouth. not happy go bang wall la, throw temper at me for what. you throw temper would change anything mehs. and please, scolding would not help my results improve. whatever la, i just hate you.k, i'm awesomely bored. i wanna go out with gay and les again. make me laugh like crazy :D then can horny with gay. HAHAHAHHAHA. ahshit, i forgot i haven't posted. LOL. my eyes can't see straight. like look at something then if don't concentrate, will blurblur one :o i've got cool eyes. HAHAHA
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date/time 5:31 pm
post exams outings
HAHAHA, i feel happy :D Geraldine, Amanda and Jolene jio me out :D WOO. hahahaha, i'm going out with Geraldine next monday :D HAH! she finally asks me out, yay. ilh. out with Jolene tomorrow. hahaha, that's gonna be nice. Amanda nehs, tsk. that smarty hasn't told me when we're going out. smart huhs. LOL. EEE, wahlao. that dumb Jolene, can't make it. good laa D: i feel happyyyyy. i know what to draw for art already :D YES! like finally. tuition later D: i'm reluctant. pffftttttt. hahahaha. having millions of fun colouring my supposedly art piece look alike, just 10 times smaller xD k, i'm damn bored man was messaging Gervais and i told him alot :D i trust he wouldn't tell anyone yeahs :D and what, i wanted to sleep then messages kept flooding my inbox. hahaha, kept me awake you know D: hahahah. bcb, ignore them and their snide remarks k. we both know who's EQ and IQ is higher right? :D just ignore that manwhore alright :D meloveyou loads
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date/time 2:22 pm
you leave me speechless
Everyday there's nothing new And now I just try to find some hope To try and hold onto But it starts again It'll never end tsk, looking for pictures for art. and honestly, none has caught my attention. fuck. but i've got an inspiration on what to draw already :D hopefully is see from pictures and get inspiration to draw la. hahahah, i'm hungry. gonna go get my tako balls later. i want Avril Lavigne songs D: and i'm slowly getting hooked on to The Veronicas songs. hahaha, it's nice. ohmywee, i wanna play basketball later :o i'm going to Hazel's house sometime soon to do art draft :D
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date/time 1:07 pm
ah so, why do you care
yay, basketball hoop :D was damn reluctant to wake up again :/ but cos some nincompoop was being the best alarm on earth. was drilling == FUCK YOU LAA D: k whatever. talked to Amy for a while then tuition.
tuition was crap. hahahah, laughed like mad. Serena kept saying i've gone crazy. then still say the one sitting next to me would have gone crazy too. HOR NURUL? hahaha, supposed to go study with Weaven but mum didn't allow me to. sad, sorry Weaven :D
math paper1 and science tomorrow. WAHLAO D: andandand, SENTOSA WITH ANGIE ON FRIDAY :D HAH! LOSER.
i think i'm abit deranged today xD hahahaha, i'm high :D my mum didn't go to work today D: suck
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date/time 10 May 2009,10:36 pm
it's all in the past
PFFFFFFFFT. i'm back on my blogging spree. watched Charlie and The Chocolate Factory. it's cute. 'good morning starshine, the earth says hello.' damn cute you know. Willy Wonka is freakishly cute :D and i wanna get flashbacks like his :D they're awesome. no school tomorrow :D yay. tho there are far too many hols already == tsk. what she says hurts, alot
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date/time 5:27 pm
like you can see how hard i'm trying
some mother's day. i detest today. honestly. i had a wake up call, thanks bitch. really, thanks alot. i honestly hate weekends. i hate the three of you man. honestly. putting those aside. i've got the sudden urge to listen to Avril Lavigne's songs. hahaha, got a new TV today. pfft. my eyes feels pain, idk if it's cos i cried or it's cos i slept late last night or it's cos i was constantly rubbing it. ahwell, there's math paper1 and science on tues. math paper2 and lit on wed. art on thurs. listening on fri. i'm scared for art. idk what to do. need do prep work which i obviously have no idea what's it. movie night with Hazel on fri.
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date/time 09 May 2009,2:04 pm
And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
last night, i couldn't sleep i guess. was thinking about what has happened the past few months. from newyear countdown with les to CCA open house to valentine's day to Angie's birthday to dunman high match to sex ed and eastcoastpark to my birthday to westzone to now. then lastlast year came. i really really miss it D: and come to think of it, i haven't seen Jane since the start of this year altho our schools are so near. fuck la D: pfft, and i heeded Nurul's advice but unfortunately, i didn't succeed. pfft. woke up cos of bcb's sms. hahaha, sms-ed her for a while then went back to sleep. then Weaven's sms woke me up :o was super reluctant to get out of bed. hahaha. studied blahblah. went for tuition, turns out, don't have. hahaha, retarded. didn't want to go home, but bobian no one to go study with. plus i didn't bring my wallet D: hais, so i'm home :D and i'm hungry. hahaha, shall go get tako balls later :D YAY. hahaha
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date/time 08 May 2009,11:17 pm
if tomorrow was too late
But there's a danger in loving somebody too much, and its sad when you know its your heart you cant trust i need someone to talk to me on the phone all the way till 2. i need to go crazy at midnight with someone D: i need so many things, but i doubt there is anyone who can actually give them to me. i need to laugh without that getting-hit-in-the-stomach feeling. i really need to stop being grumpy. i need to cry and i need to stop thinking, like how i didn't in the past. i hope you know you're killing me inside with what you're saying.
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date/time 5:49 pm
I need a little good luck to get me by this time
i could wake up today :o maybe it's cos i slept well last night :D hahaha, history was good i guess. i barely slept much. hehs, Priscilla left at the starting D: make me scared siahs. hahaha, after exam went tiong with Nurul and Amy to meet Priscilla :D hahaha, damn crappy la. in mac keep making me laugh, i almost spat my sprite lehs D: bused back with Amy. hahaha. home, watched my favourite show :D then napped. dad came back, went down buy stuff. talking to Amy for the whole time. hahaha. talking to Ashley, Arynna, Weaven and Yi Xin. cute people :D the girls are horny. HAHAHA, gay. these few days no appetite ehs :o then eat until happy happy, fullfull. few hours later. want to vomit.
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date/time 07 May 2009,10:10 pm
second chance
history tomorrow. i honestly hope my nerve cells have sufficient information to help me attain goodmarks for this exam :x idk why i stopped using simple words. hahahah, Gervais said he'll revise history with me tomorrow :D woo, thanksthanks :D :o gay just asked me mathquestion. first in history. hahahaha, cos i normally ask her one. hahaha, messaging les too :D hehehe :o she's on. i like eating icing :D especially the red coloured ones. but, apparently i'll feel thirsty just eating abit. suchabitch. and the teacher's are dumb. they want the files. i think i lost some worksheets, plus idk what to write on content page. hehs
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date/time 5:28 pm
H2SO4
so people have asked me what's wrong and is there anything troubling me deep deep inside. there is. but even if there is, idk how to say it all out. everything single thing. even if i do say them, would they understand and not think i'm seeking attention or going out of my mind. but, even if they do understand, can they help me. i guess not. told Nurul and bcb some of them already, but they themselves think it's complicated. and besides, they have their own problems. how can they help.
Gervais asked too. but, idk how to tell him anything. idk whether he'll think i'm unscrewed or something. hah, i can't cry again :o howhowhow. i feel so abnormal. hah, history history history. here i come.
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date/time 5:02 pm
so this is how guilt feels
went to school with boobie and Hazel. geog exam. could finish the paper altho i slowly did it :o and i even have time to sleep. after school, went foyer. saw Mrs Chia teaching. then she taught Shafia, Priscilla, Nurul and Melanie. learnt abit then went up to 1/4 to find Mr Woo for Angie's phone. had to wait till 12. stupid then went to class, found the praying mantis from the light thing at the back. the one to kill mosquitoes. LOL, it's halfdead. no head, body split into half. damn sad you know. tsk, i killed it in the end :x accidentally. went dentist after school, blahblah. i might get braces :o i'll look more spastic than now. hahaha, went to places after school then finally settling at Angie's roofgarden. talked to her bout stuff. and, i wanna cry. i don't wanna eat dinner later. fuck, i'm gonna go force myself to learn history. hopefully, that'll make me feel better. and my tongue's cut. i like blood :D i said what if. doesn't mean it is. whatever la, you wouldn't believe me even if i told you none of it was true. i guess, you would never believe me after what has happened.
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date/time 06 May 2009,10:04 pm
Am I supposed to put my life on hold
geog exam tomorrow. i honestly don't know whether i'm prepared. it feels like it isn't in my mind, yet when i do the paper, the knowledge just comes pouring out. hahaha, but sometimes. that fails me, tsk and i blank out on the paper. hais lover talked to me on MSN just now :D yay, longlong since i've talked to her. since jan? omg la :o last year somemore closeclose one D: i wonder what's happening now. pfft. and yay, i'm talking to Stephanie again :D woo~ what if i treat this friendship as a game, what if i'm just here cos i'm afraid to hurt you with what i'm gonna do.
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date/time 4:25 pm
falling right into you
school today was good :D i talked more :D tho i didn't want to, hehs. skipped assembly with Priscilla :D hahaha, damn gay. i couldn't find my thermometer, heh. used Angie's one. thankgod she has the cover la :D hahahah. history was good :D i feel confident for hist exam on fri :D then recess, i wanted to eat chicken rice. but HoPing wasn't in school, so eat that then like not really nice uhs. hahaha, idk why :x then maths was slack. was given past year exam paper to do. i think i'll go do them later :D CME was crap. class was given a long lecture D: then um, cleared the cupboard cos it's messy. makes no difference anyway. hahaha, skipped chinese for DnT :D stupid Meldon took my box's lid. made a new one lo :x hahaha, but the one's ugly D: IDIOT LA MELDON. after school, went mac, laughed alot. then went home. used the com, mapled while talking to Weaven. some ugly bastard from his class called me a chaoahlian. please la, i'm not ahlian. even if i am, i'm so much better than you. you stepbeng one == LOSER k, i think i go maple with Angie now :D hahaha, ohoh. i apparently don't have much appetite now :/ and i'm scared for geog tomorrow D: Christine Tan's gonna be the one who marks it lehs. wtf D:
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date/time 05 May 2009,4:28 pm
I took a shot
woke up late. quite reluctant to wake up. walked to school. wasn't my usual self today. hais, kinda quiet. or more of, i don't wanna talk much. Ahwong has dengue, hopefully he'll get well :D um then, chinese. laoshi shouted at Priscilla and i. such a loser siahs. then english, blahblah. had recess with Amanda, Jewel and Hazel. got my nametag already. hahaha skipped a period of math. talking to yanglaoshi. hahaha, she's funny :D back to class. then bio and geog. ms ray's fun :D hahaha, the boys are noisy la. then she discovered that YiQing and Glenn were together. hahaha, supposed to stay back after school. but was too lazy to :x shall stay back tomorrow instead :D plus, i got BM's hug :D went jurongpoint with Angie. walked around, sorry uhs :x you talk and talk, i just didn't hear much :x ate Macs. saw boobie and Izul(?). then left for stmargs. i hate the guard. LOSER. found out what i needed. end of the year then can confirm :/ hais. Angie cheered me up today :D laughed like crazy with her. cabbed back. Angie said i'm not my usual self today. i wonder why. hais, almost vomit my lunch :/ shit. i'm moody :/ gonna maple with Angie later :D
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date/time 04 May 2009,11:52 pm
couldn't help myself
ohmygod, i can't sleep. honestly, i can't. at least Nurul's online. and i'm getting a hug from bm. those two would content me i guess. i'm not looking forward to tomorrow. i just want 11.59, to stay as it is and not move on to 12.00. i guess, i can sum up the general thing for tomorrow. teachers would be more agitated cos exams are in 2 days. i'm gonna feel guilty for the whole day till she gets over what happened just now. lessons are gonna be so dumb cos i wouldn't have any mood after seeing my bio marks. in the afternoon, i guess i'll be going out, again. then home. where it's always so noisy, where i just want to stay in that scenario. then before i sleep, i wonder what will happen. i don't wanna go school tomorrow. i've got the suffocating feeling again. then there's the heavy heart one. and the stomach doing it's continous somersaults feeling. then staring at my phone, hoping a message would somehow find its way to my phone instead of being lost. but no, i doubt it'll come anyway. i've thought of what to do since i can't sleep. play MS, find some kind soul to talk to on the phone, laugh at how retared i was in primaryschool tho i'm sure Amanda would be able to tell me, or bloghop. either one of these i guess
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date/time 3:42 pm
what if i dont care anymore
today was fine. woke up, realised it was raining. decided to take a cab. then saw lu laoshi. so hahaha, lobang with her :D went into school and realised swineflu so zai one :o we're in orange zone. orange :D heh, so temperature taking, blahblah. overall, school was fine. went cityvibe with Andrea, Amy and Sheryl. supposed to go bukittimah plaza, but didn't go in the end. went back to cityvibe to get lunch and then home. i'm tired and sleepy. i miss my emoposts from primaryschool D: ohohoh, missray is back. but i don't think my class is having geog tomorrow la D: fuck. then um, studying with Nurul on wednesday :D not sure if Priscilla's coming too :D hahaha . i'm tired of guessing games leh
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date/time 03 May 2009,7:44 pm
tomorrow
downloading MS ver. 5.5 cos stupid 6.2 got some problem == asshole. anyways, thank you Angie for agreeing to play MS private server with me again :D i'm hungry and my stomach is making it's funny gastric sounds. i feel like drinking mocha. and there's school tomorrow. heh. exams on thurs. thinking of it makes me scared D:
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date/time 4:17 pm
pokepoke
woke up, went back to sleep. went down to get lunch then study. i shot my sister xD and made her cry == ahwell, she dared me. still can say, come shoot me la. then i shot her finish, she cry. stupid siahs. i'm bored D: and i'm gonna get ulcer la. chips, redtea and chocolate. heh. i feel like playing water~ hahahahah, k. random :x fuck ebuddy. fuck modem. on off on off one == idiot D:
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date/time 02 May 2009,11:44 pm
it blew into the air
mm, went Marshall's house. didn't expect to see gay there :D hehehe, then waited for les to come before going to gek poh. went to mac. gay and Marshall kept staring at me. losers, make me laugh then say i siao == IDIOT. anyways, waited for Marshall cut his hair finish then go les's mum's shop. LOL, kept disturbing les :D gay laughs at my eyes D: idiot, then bus back to jurongpoint. Marshall went back home. then walkwalk around. stayed there for damn long la. LOL at the joke book in popular. there's one describing people and farting. one was, The miserable one : has the urge to fart but cant. LOL. then the other is, The unfortunate one : wants to fart but shits instead. thinking of it makes me laugh la. then on the way back, disturbed les again. AHAHAH. those two left in the end D: make me suffer with Marshall. HAHAHA, joke :D then talked to Amy for awhile then cabbed back home. shower-ed and blah. you know what, i've got a really smartgay. she know she's going out then never charge phone. omg la, where got such a person in the world la == LOSER ONE. hahahaha. my mum's gay, suddenly say, Mothers' Day. Ahem ahem. LOL la. HAHAHAH 2 times in one day.
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date/time 10:55 am
yo momma
heh, making life difficult for Marshall :x laughing at his yo momma jokes, then suddenly say don't wanna hear anymore and just want to talk. my stomach's doing flips. watched American Idol, Chart Attack, A Bug's Life and Supernatural just now. i don't like american idol, the songs are lousy :o but they have great voices xD chart attack was gay, weird songs popping out. a bug's life is cute :D but sadly, i watched it too many times hence, i thought it was boring. supernatural, freaked me out like crazy la D: it's the exorcist one :o watched alot of times, tsk. but, it still freaked me :x heh, all the shows watched before one D: i wanna play basketball, but too lazy to open the door. got tuition later. sucks D: tsk, i might go on a blogging spree again :x hahahahah. honestly, idk how i hurt you.
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date/time 9:21 am
i guess, i'm gonna hurt you again
yay, changed blogskin. AND I'VE GOT MY DINOS AS WALLPAPER :D hahahahaha, yay. i like. LOL. didn't sleep too well last night. more of, couldn't sleep :x and i had gastric last night. most probably cos of how much i ate during dinner. woke up damn early also :/ i downloaded cutegames on to my phone :D veryvery cute ones. i've got no mood. and i wanna sleep. and my stomach hurts D: watched ghostwhisperer last night :D i like. hahaha, tho i got freaked out by the person sitting at the bus stop, then suddenly at the window. was on the phone, then i saw i screamed xD mm, i wonder if i'm going out today. i'm hungry D: stupid. i don't wanna go school on monday. i wanna stay home D: i wanna sleep and sleep and sleep :/
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date/time 01 May 2009,11:11 pm
There’s nothing I can say to you
ahshit, no mood. i had suicidal tendencies. awesome ones too. hah. my cramps hurt the fuck out of everything in me. ugh. bcb. its hard to tell. seriously damn hard. hah. everytime i think it'll be fine. everything goes back to squareone. even nurul can predict why im moody sometimes. bcb D: i want to cry. and i hate all these guessing games.
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date/time 11:35 am
te echo de menos
eating chocolate now :D i'm seriously gonna get a sorethroat later D: sad la. tskkk. Amy woke me up today :o talked to her for a while. was reading harrypotter :D i like. hahahah, gonna go get takoballs later :D WEE~ idk if i should go for tuition tomorrow eh :/ and i wanna eat corncrackers D: hais. yay, i know what i want for lunch :D NASI LEMAK. i'm gonna grow F-A-T. teeheehee, no basketball trainings to kill me D: sad. hais ohohoh, i'm gonna meet bcb after the exams :D AND I'M GONNA GO OUT WITH HER LA. teeheehee. ahshit, my throat hurts D: hais.
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